Tuesday, June 14, 2022

Cuck Revival: Part 2

Apologies for the grammar mistakes or typos. No time to proofread. Enjoy!


 THE GREAT FUCK

1

You take a sip from your wine. It’s the good kind. Gumuguhit sa lalamunan pababa sa sikmura. It reenergizes you. You’ve got a high tolerance for alcohol, and this one feels so good. Especially tonight. 

BRRRRT!

Alter Phone keeps on sounding. Buhay na buhay ang mga bakla tonight ah, naisip mo. You take one final sip, and you open the phone. 

20 messages. Damn. Haba ng hair mo. You scroll through the black app, watching out for profile pictures and names that will catch your attention. So far… none. You have a specific type: a little bit bulky, with arms that could crush you like a bear’s would, malaking tite, malaking hita, muscles, muscles, muscles! For so long you’ve been a twink, and then you were a twunk, but now you’re back to being a twink because you’re losing so much time at the office. But that’s fine. Twink era naman na. People like twinks nowadays. Just look at the KPOP boy groups and the famous boy bands. Twink is the new sexy, the new frontier. Everyone wants to bed twinks, wants to fuck them.

You’re the very definition of a twink. You have that boyish smile that does not betray your age. Your skin is milky white. You have armpits with just the right amount of hair. Your lovers love licking you all over. You take pride in how your skin looks so glowing. You’ve got tiny hips, and a offensively flat stomach. Your nipples are pink and perky, like you’re always horny. You’ve got a beauty mark that makes you even more desirable. 

In short, you believe yourself to be the perfect twink. But you don’t say that out loud. It’s offensive, vulgar, conceited. And you don’t like to brag. The irony is, you love the attention. You crave that attention. Which is why when someone desires you enough to cheat on their boyfriends and girlfriends, you put out. Oh gosh, how many times have you put out for unfaithful guys? Gaanong karaming winasak na tahanan na? 

Di naman ganun karami, sakto lang. Even that sounded so evil. You don’t admit it out loud, of course. You don’t even share it to your closest of friends. Baka mag-iba pa ang tingin nila sayo. You are content with knowing that your looks, your body, your allure can turn guys’ heads, and make them do bad deeds. That is enough to stroke your ego. But also enough to make you feel guilty.

Which is why you’ve stayed away from committed guys for months. Kelan yung kay Daddy ulit? 3 months ago? You’ve avoided being that slut for so long. Yes, it did wonders for your ego, but how about the sleepless nights feeling guilty? You know deep down na mabait ka namang tao. You are kind, you help your friends whenever you can, you go out of your way to help those in need. 

Am I a bad person?, you ask yourself. 

But you don’t answer it. You avoid the question. You avoid the situation, too. You pray na hindi ka na malalagay sa ganung sitwasyon ulit: ang maging kabit. You behave. And you try as hell to get over that part of your life.

But do you really get over it?


2

BRRRRT! The messages keep on coming. A lot of them are not your type. You skip those chats, you avoid being the giving end of rejection. You know how rejection feels, albeit you get them sparingly. And that’s the problem, isn’t it? Hindi ka sanay sa rejection. People usually don’t say no to you. And in the rare moments that you do get rejected, it hits you hard. A lot of these Grindr messages are an ego booster, but you need only one rejection to feel like shit. Maybe that’s why you crave for attention so much? Because you know how one shitty moment can destroy your confidence. 

And where else do you seek for attention than from guys in relationships, right? Alam mong dapat nakatuon sila sa mga jowa nila. Pero di ba, ang sarap akitin ang mga lalakeng tali na? Ang sarap makita na hindi ka nila matiis. Ang sarap sa feeling na malaman tinatago ka nila sa mga jowa nila, kasi alam niyo pareho na kapag nalaman ng jowa nila ang kababalaghang ginagawa ninyo, magagalit ang mga yun. At maiinsecure sayo. Ah, the ultimate aphrodisiac for you: ang pilit na binabalikan ka. Someone who can’t enough of you. 


3

Here’s Exhibit A, from a previous hookup you had:

He messages you on IG. Your IG is well-curated. You’ve got several thirst-trap photos in there. You have that cute, sexy smile. 

Hey there, message niya.

You exchange pleasantries. Mabait siya. Charming. Funny. You find him sexy. You check his IG, may kasama siyang constant guy sa mga photos. You wonder who that is, but you don’t mention it.

The friendly convo turns to flirting. Ang cute cute mo, sabi niya. You reciprocate by telling him he looks good too. Aha! There’s the bait. He replies: Ah talaga ba?

Yeah. Your body looks *fire emoji*

Another bait. Boy, you’re good at this!

Then the conversation takes a turn for the worse… or perhaps the better? He sends you a pic of him at the gym. Muscle shirt, sweat glistening. He’s flexing his biceps. Typical gym rat. Tama ka nga, ang sexy niya. You wonder how that sweat smells on you, when he’s on top of you, railing you so hard. You get turned on unconsciously, and you accidentally send (or is it an accident?):

*hot face emoji*

Nasend mo na bago mo narealize ang kagagahan mo. But there’s no turning back. You don’t even think about the guy he’s with in his IG photos, because he keeps on sending you shirtless photos, and you keep on returning thirsty compliments.

Wow!

Haha you look great!

Nice!

Playing safe lahat ng reactions mo. But you can’t deny it: you can’t stop reacting to his sexy photos. You can’t stop flirting. You can’t stop thirsting for him. 

He messages you: Send photos too? Please? 

You reply: What about the guy in your IG posts? 

He takes a while to respond. You confirm his cheating ass when he replies: Oh he’s just a close friend. 

Typical asshole. But a hot asshole. A sexy asshole. An asshole that you wanna tap? 

You’re getting hornier. The guy’s an obvious cheater. Pero hindi mo mapigilan. You’ve been talking to each other for over an hour. He keeps on telling you that you’re cute, that he wants to meet you, take you out to dinner some time. He keeps on liking your past IG posts…so far in the past it’s almost impolite. Nagpapapansin. He’s obviously into you. He obviously wants to fool around with you. 

Ano pa hinihintay mo?

You send him a picture of you in your fitted sando shirt, the gray one where you look really good. Your white skin glows, and the outfit fits your twink body so well you would jerk off to your own picture. You are wearing briefs. You’re looking sideways, so the outlines of your ass are showing. Your booty is so plump you could bounce a coin off it. You’re staring at the window, the early morning sunlight hitting you and turning you even more otherwordly. And is that hard-on you’re showing? You can’t really tell, but there’s enough hint of it para magwonder sila at maglaway. 

He sends a message after 5 minutes: *egg plant emoji* *splashing sweat emoji*

You reply: *rolling on the floor laughing emoji*

It takes a while before he sends another one. You are ready for another quick exchange of naughty emoji, but he catches you off guard with his reply.

He sends a video.

Of his boner. Tigas na tigas. Bumabakat sa briefs. You could see a hint of precum.

He’s stroking his boner. 

His thighs look so strong. Those thighs could choke you. You could bury your head in those thighs.

And the dick, oh god, THE DICK! Looks like a pretty decent seven-incher, even from the outlines it makes on the very tight briefs. 

You’re now at the point of no return. This will be the start of a lurid affair. 

Game on.

You tease him some more in the next few days. You go beyond emojis now. You’re sexting.

 Him: Can’t get that picture of you in your jockstrap out of my head.

You: Loko.

H: Totoo. Sarap kainin.

Y: Hahaha. Sabi nga nila.

H: Wow.

Y: Joke lang.

H: Need to confirm that, then. Yung sabi nila na masarap kainin.

Y: Magagalit yang close friend mo.

H: He won’t if he doesn’t know…

Y: Gago. Haha. Gagawin mo pa kong kabit.

There, sinabi mo na sa kanya. At this point you should have stopped, but who are we kidding? You’re in too deep. You can’t stop now. Kantot na kantot ka na. So you send him a photo of you without a jockstrap. Actually, without nothing on.

Him: God. You are so hot.

You: Thanks. 

Him: Let’s fuck na.

You agree to meet up sometime later during the week. It’s all you can think about. 

You’ve gone celibate, even with your hands, in the last 5 days. It’s Friday night, everybody at work is itching to go home. You went out of the office exactly at 5 PM. Umuwi ka, naligo, naglinis ng matindi. You wore thongs this time. You ass crack is showing, and your dick is barely kept in place, but who cares? You’re gonna have the best fuck of your life tonight. 

He drops by your place. You get in his car. He offers you dinner, but you decline. You whisper something in his ear. He looks back at you, shocked, but he starts the car. 

Habang naghahanap kayo ng secluded spot malapit sa condo building mo, hinihimas mo yung boner niya sa shorts. He keeps on moaning while driving.

Fuck. Ang hot mo, tangina, ungol niya. Ang lalim ng boses niya. Just your type. What a hunk this is. You get so turned on by his heavy breathing, hindi mo napigilang ibaba ang zipper niya.  Putangina, commando si Kuya. 

Patuloy siyang nagdadrive, nakatingin ng diretso, pero napakagat siya ng labi.

Shit, are you serious? Baka makabangga ako. Hinihingal na siya sa libog.

You tell him not to worry. You tell him, Di kita iooverwhelm. Bumaba ka at sinimulang dilaan ang burat niya. Tigas na tigas na. At ang bango. You know he took a bath as well. You’re even more turned on because of his hygienic ways.

Fuuuuuuck, ungol niya. Nakita mong tumirik ang mata siya. Shit, this is getting very risky, naisip mo. Sana buhay pa kayo after nito. You plunge your head further into his crotch. Get in there, you slut. 

Shiiit, teka, teka, teka, babala niya. Bigla ka niyang hinila paakyat.

Sarap?, tanong mo sa kanya.

Oo, pero wait. Baka labasan na ko. Grabe yung thrill, sagot niya. Napangiti siya sayo. Sinagot mo siya ng ngiti rin, Sabay hinubad mo ang shorts mo. Lumantad sa kanya ang suot mong thong, pati ang burat mong kumakawala. Kanina ka pa tigas na tigas sa hunk na to.

Inabot niya ang burat mo at sinimulan kang batihin. Buti na lang tinted ang sasakyan niya, kasi kung hindi, makikita ng ibang nasa daan kung paano ka umungol, paano tumirik ang mga mata mo. 

Fuck, yeahhh. Sige pa. Ginalingan mo pa ang ungol mo. Alam mong natuturn on ang iba kapag naririnig nila ang ungol mo. Paramdam mo pa sa ka-meet mo ngayon kung gaano kasarap ang ginagawa niyang pagbate sayo. Humalinghing ka. Magmura ka. Magprecum ka. Show him that he’ll have a great time with you. Ipakita mo na hindi siya magsisising iniwan niya ang “close friend” niya. Iparinig mo na worth it na pinili ka niya tonight.

Biglang tumigil ang sasakyan. Madilim ang paligid. You’re on a vacant lot somewhere. Is it a highway? Fuck, gaano kalayo ang inabot niyo? 

There’s no one else around. He turns off the engine. He brings down his seat, and climbs to the back seat. He motions you to follow him. It takes an effort to move around, pero buti na lang malaki ang sasakyan.

The moment na nasa likod na kayo, bigla ka niyang sinunggaban. He kisses you like there’s no tomorrow. His lips are soft, and his breath smells with lust. It smells good.

Mmmm, ungol mo habang kinakagat-kagat niya ang labi mo.

Fuck. I’ve waited for this for so long, bulong niya habang nilalaplap niya ang leeg mo. There’s a certain hunger in his kisses. 

Ba’t ang libog mo, tanong mo sa kanya habang lalo mong nilalapit ang katawan mo sa bato-bato niyang katawan.

God, sana kasing hot mo rin siya, sabi niya sabay hubad sa suot mo. Hindi pa natatanggal ang damit mo, bigla na niyang sinunggaban ang mga utong mo. Palipat-lipat siya, nilalaro ng dila niya, kinakagat. Lumiyad ka pa. Dinikit mo pa sa mukha niya ang dibdib mo.

Fuck, sige pa, bulong mo sa kanya. Pinaupo mo siya, at pumatong ka sa kanya. Lalo mong diniin ang sarili mo sa kanya. Napahawak siya sa pwet mo. Nilamas niya. Piniga niya. Gumiling ka pabalik. Dumampi ang hiwa sa pwet mo sa naghuhumindig niyang alaga.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh!, sabay kayong umungol. Nagsisimula nang uminit ang kotse. Patuloy siya sa pagkain ng utong mo. Binilisan mo ang paggiling ng pwet mo. Nararamdaman mong dumudulas.  

I’m leaking so much babe. Fuck!, ungol niya. Ang hot ng pagkasabi niya ng “babe”. Naramdaman mo ang pagiging kabit. Nakakabaliw. Parang ikaw ang boyfriend niya. Lalong tumindi ang libog mo. Lalo mong ginusto na pasukin ka niya. Diniin mo pa lalo ang pwet mo. Umungol siya ng malakas. 

FUUUUUCK!, garalgal niyang ungol. Bigla bumaba ang dila niya. Inakyat niya ang lumiliyad mong katawan pataas. Inabot ng mga labi niya ang burat. Fuck, he’s gonna suck you! You feel his lips encircle your cock. Parang naging slow-mo ang lahat. Kelan ka ba last nachupa? Kelan ka last nagkaroon ng top na willing kang paligayahin? 

Oh putanginaaaaaaa, ungol mo. Bigla mong sinagad sa bunganga niya ang burat mo. Hindi mo napigilan. Ang sarap talaga! Minsanan ka lang machupa, kaya susulitin mo na. Sorry, sabi mo sa kanya. Baka nagulat sya na bigla mong sinagad.

No worries, ngiti niyang sagot. Bigla niya ulit sinubo. Lalo kang napaliyad. Para kang nag-lelevitate sa loob ng sasakyan. Hindi mo aakalain that you could do those things to your body. That you could be an acrobat. But he’s there, supporting you all the way. He’s holding you up, supporting your ass as he sucks you. Yung isang kamay mo nakatukod sa front seat, samantalang ang isa nakasabunot sa ulo niya. Naririnig mo siyang naduduwal.

Argghhhhsfckkk.

Tangina. He’s deepthroating me. This is unbelievable. 

Sige paaaa, ungol mo. Patuloy ka niyang chinupa. Patuloy kang nagbiyaheng langit. Napatingin ka sa kanya. Para syang uhaw na uhaw sa tite.

Chinuchupa mo ba ang boyfriend mo?, tanong mo sa kanya. It’s time you address the elephant in the room.

Tumigil siya bigla. Tumigin siya sayo ng diretso. Katahimikan. Shit.

Tinanggal niya ang bunganga niya sa burat mo. Huminga siya ng malalim. 

Hindi, sagot niya. Ngumiti siya, at biglang nilamon ulit ang burat mo. Ikaw naman ay nilamon  na ng libog.


4

Nawawalan ka na ng kontrol sa sarili. You can feel it slipping. You don’t usually feel this. As a power bottom, you love to be in control. You know what you want, and you know how to get it. You know what kind of pleasure you want from your top. 

But this one’s different, no? This cheating hunk, all this fucking, teasing, being unfaithful is turning you on so much more. Is it because the attention is so intoxicating? Is it because he’s actually choosing to be with you tonight? Is it because you can also see him losing control of himself? Is it because you can see him desiring you over his boyfriend?

All of the above.

Hindi mo alam kung gaano katagal ka na niyang chinuchupa, but you realized it’s time to give back. Bigla kang bumaba. Natanggal ang burat mo sa bibig niya. Inabot mo ang mga labi niya. Nakipagespadahan ang dila mo sa dila niya. Nilaplap niyo ang isa’t isa. Nagpalitan kayo ng laway, ng kaluluwa. 

Fuck, you kiss so good, ungol niya sa gitna ng halikan niyo. Tumigil ka sa halikan at tumitig sa mga mata niya. 

Better than him?, tanong mo. 

Fuck yeah, sagot niya sabay ngasab sa leeg mo. Pinaramdam niya gamit ng dila niya at mga halik kung gaano ka nya kagusto.

Yes, fuuuuuuck, ungol mo sa kanya. Sige, paramdam mo sakin na mas magaling ako, dagdag mo pa.

Gustong-gusto kita, babe. I wanna fuck you so bad, sagot niya habang nakabaon ang mukha niya sa leeg mo. Umiikot ang dila niya. Tumaas ang balahibo mo sa narinig mo. Nanginginig ka sa libog. 

Pinatigil mo siya sa paghalik, at tumalikod ka sa kanya. Binaba mo ang ulo mo papunta sa burat niya, habang tinaas mo naman ang pwet mo sa mukha niya. Hinawakan niya ang dalawa mong binti, sinuportahan ka para di malaglag, at binaon niya ang mukha niya sa butas mo. Sabay mong sinubo nang buo ang burat niya.

Arghhhhfckkkkk, sabay niyong ungol ulit. Sabay niyong naramdaman ang sarap na ginawa niyo sa isa’t isa. 

Siya: Dinilaan ang paligid ng butas mo, binasa nang husto, inamoy ang bango ng naghahalong pawis at perfume sa balat mo, tinutusok tusok ng dila ang mamula-mula mong butas, kinagat kagat ang maumbok mong pwet, nilasap ang tamis ng loob mo. He’s ravishing your hole, continually entering, attacking, violating. You wish his tongue were longer. You love that wet feeling of a tongue moving inside you. You wish he had tentacles. You wish he’d devour you even deeper.

Ikaw: Sinubo hanggang dulo ang burat niya, inikot-ikot ang dila habang nakasagad sa bunganga mo ang tite, ninamnam ang katigasan at kahabaan niya, hinigop paakayat, hinigop ang ulo, tinutusok-tusok ng dila ang butas sa ulo ng burat niya, nilasap ang precum na patuloy na tumatagos, dinilaan at pinaglaruan ang paligid ng ulo ng burat niya. And then suddenly, you swallowed him balls-deep. You could feel his sparse pubic hair tickling your nose. He’s inside your mouth, all of his seven-inch dick, but you’re not gagging. You’ve handled even larger dicks before, but this one felt so good. Maybe because you know that dick isn’t yours? Still, you show him how a proper blowjob is done. You make him feel what his boyfriend cannot. You pleasure him with your mouth, eating him whole, again and again.

Gutom na gutom kayo sa isa’t isa. Pero alam niyong hindi pa ito ang hangganan ng libog niyo. Alam niyong hinahandan niyo pa lang ang mga sarili ninyo para sa mas matindihang bakbakan. Handa ka na ba?


5

I wanna fuck you, ungol niya, sabay tigil sa pagkain sa butas mo. Basang-basa na ang pwet mo. Sobrang dulas na rin ang burat niya, sa magkahalong precum at laway.

Fuck mo ko sa labas, sabi mo, habang patuloy na dinidilaan ang burat niya.

What, no!, gulat niyang sagot. Mahuhuli tayo.

Do me like you can never do your boyfriend. Fuck me against the car, challenge mo sa kanya.

Gago, I can’t.

You can, sagot mo sa kanya, sabay deepthroat sa burat niya.

OHHHHH FUCKKKK SIGEEEEE PUTA!, ungol niya. Guys can never say no to you. Hinigop mo paakyat ang burat niya. Sumunod ang beywang niya sa bibig mo, parang hinahabol ito. Bumitaw ka sa burat niya.

Ano ulit yun?, pabiro mong tanong sa kanya. Bago pa sya makasagot, binaon mo ulit ang bibig mo sa burat niya, sabay higop, sabay galaw ng dila sa loob. Sabay-sabay lahat. Ikaw lang ang nakakagawa niyan. Lahat ng lalake nachuchupa mo, nababaliw pa ginagawa mo yan.

FUCKKKK YEAHHH KANTOT NA KITA BAAAAAABE!, ungol niya. 

It’s showtime.


6

How much of a slut are you? You’ve read exhibit A. Here’s exhibit B:

Nasa highway nga kayo. Madilim ang paligid. Maraming dumadaang sasakyan, pero hindi kayo nakikita. Nasa kabilang side kayo ng kotse niyang nakapark sa gilid ng daan. Lumabas Kang ang suot mo lang ay yung thong. Nakagilid na siya, litaw na litaw na ang butas mong kanina pang basa sa laway niya.

Naghubad na rin siya ng T-shirt at shorts. Hindi mo na siya na body worship, but you’ll do that next time. He’ll come back, for sure. Pagkalabas niyo ng kotse, naghalikan pa kayo. Para kayong mga puta: nilaplap niya ulit ang leeg mo, tinaas ang mga binti mo at kiniskis ang naglalawa niyang burat sa burat mo. Napakapit ka sa kanya. Pinisil mo ang pumuputok niyang muscles, hinimas mo ang likod niyang hulmang-hulma kakagym. Nakabuka ang bibig mo. Nasa langit ka na, kahit hindi ka pa niya pinapasok.

Buntisin mo ko, bulong mo sa kanya. I’m on PrEP.

Putangina, ako rin. Wawarakin kita, babala niya sayo habang patuloy kang niroromansa.

Shit. Lagot ka.


7

Hinampas ka niya sa bintana ng kotse niya. Nakatukod ang kamay niya sa ulo mo. Hindi ka makagalaw. Ang tanging nagagawa mo lang ay tumuwad, sinasalubong ang papasok niyang burat.

TANGINAAAAA, ANG SIKIP MO, ungol niya. Nagpipigil siya. Hindi kayo pwedeng mag-ingay. Baka mahuli. Baka may tumigil na ibang sasakyan bigla at hulihin kayo.

He’s slowly entering you. You can feel every ridge and every pulsing vein in his seven-inch monster. Fucking bare feels so good. You’re both on PrEP. You’re having doubts, but there’s no turning back now. He’s inside you. You want him inside you.

He’s pushing in, harder this time. There’s an urgency to his every move. He’s pinning you against the car window. You feel your insides quivering. His dick feels so good inside you ass. Skin-to-skin.

I want you balls-deep, you tell him.

Putanginaaaa yeah, sagot niya, sabay sagad sa butas mo. Biglang nandilim ang paningin mo. You saw a shot of electricity in the darkness. Your head is reeling. You’re out of breath. Sinasakal ka niya. Nawawalan ka na ng hangin. Tigas na tigas ang burat mo. Tumama siya sa prostate mo, pero hindi ka makahinga. Kumakabog ang dibdib.

PUTANGINAAAAA, ungol niya sabay hugot palabas ng burat. Lumuwag ang pagkakasakal niya. Bigla sumugod ang hangin sa baga mo, umakyat ang dugo sa ulo mo, at sinugod ka ng matinding kasarapan.

FUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK, ungol mo nang malakas. Putangina ano yun? Anong nangyari? What did he do?

What did you do?, tanong mo sa kanya.

A little bit of choke play, sagot niya, natatawa. Sorry, I warned you dapat. Weird ba?

No, do it again, utos mo. Hinanda mo ang sarili mo this time. You take a deep breath.  He enters you fully, balls-deep, just the way you like it. His skin is on fire. Both of your are on fire, sweating, heaving. He reaches for your throat, and chokes you. You started to gag. You lose air, you start seeing stars, your heartbeat is increasing rapidly by the minute. You can hear his moans, but he seems so far away. You’re losing it. And then he loosens his hold on your throat.

Your eyes turn white with so much pleasure.

The rushing feeling is intoxicating. You breathe in big gulps of air. Your tongue is out, touching the car’s window. You can taste the air that’s rushing inside your lungs. 

FUUUUCKKKK, ANG SARAPPPPP, ungol mo, habang nakalabas ang dila mo.

Yeah baby you feel so goooood, he tells you. He pins you hard against the car window, he reaches for your tongue. You both look ridiculous, but you don’t care. You are in the moment. Nagdidilaan kayo sa bintana ng kotse niya. Hindi niya maabot ang dila mo. Nilapit mo pa mukha mo. Naghahalikan na kayo nang nakalabas ang dila niya. Nilalasap niyo ang hangin at laway ng isa’t isa nang sabay.

Putangina, ang sarap mo, puta kaaaaa, he degrades you. 

Mas puta sa jowa mo?, sagot mo pabalik. Palaban ka.

Oo, puta ka. Akin ka lang, putangina mo!, ungol niya.

Do you love this?, tanong mo. 

What?, tanong niya, patuloy na kinakadyot ka.

Do you love what you’re doing to me?

YES, I LOVE THIS, I LOVE YOU P—!, hiyaw niya. There he goes again, balls-deep, hitting your prostate. He chokes you again, you find yourself gasping for air once more. But this time, you tighten your hole. You put a bit of muscle control down there to choke his dick. You are choking each other, only at different places.

You can’t breathe. Tumataas na naman blood pressure mo. Bumibilis tibok ng puso mo. Lalo mong hinigpitan ang butas mo. Naririnig mo siyang humihiyaw na. Kelan ka kaya makakahinga? Matagal pa ba? Nasan na ang hangin? Help, you need to br—

He suddenly loosens his hold. He’s screaming.

I’M CUMMING, I’M CUMMING, AYAN NA, FUCKKKK ANG SIKIP PUTAAAAA, hiyaw niya sabay baon sa butas mo.

PUTAAAAAAAAAA, hiyaw mo kasabay ng hiyaw niya.

Sabay na sumirit palabas ang mga tamod niyo. You come handsfree. You shoot your cum on his car door. It’s one shot after another. Days worth of cum, now dripping on his car.

Patuloy siyang kumadyot sa butas mo, sumisirit sa bawat kadyot. Nanginginig ang katawan niyo pareho. Naramdaman mo ang paghalo ng tamod niya sa loob mo. Ang init, walang tigil. Punong-puno ka ng semilya niya. Binuntis ka niya. 

Sinandal niya ang ulo niya sa batok mo. Nakalabas pa rin ang dila mo, nilalasap ang hangin. Hinahalik-halikan niya ang batok mo. Dinidilaan ang matamis mong pawis. Matigas pa rin ang burat niya sa loob mo. Hindi pa niya hinuhugot.

Fuck you. Ang sarap nun, bulong niya sayo. Nilapit niya ang mukha niya sayo. Naghalikan kayo.   

Inabot niya burat mong matigas pa rin. Pinisil niya. May napuntang tamod sa kamay niya. Pinaharap ka niya sa kanya. Tiningnan ka nang mabuti. Bigla niyang tinaas ang kamay niyang may tamod mo, at dinilaan ito. 

Fuck, ungol mo. Hinatak mo siya papalapit sayo. Hinalikan mo siya. Nagpalitan kayo ng laway. Nilasap mo ang kinain niyang tamod mo.


8

You’re on your way home. He’s driving. He’ll drop you off.

You’re still reeling from that great outdoor fuck. Hindi pa rin lumalambot ang burat mo.

Biglang nagring ang phone niya. Tumingin ka sa kanya. May slight panic sa mga mata niya. Tinaas niya ang isang darili niya, pinapatahimik ka. Sinagot niya ang tawag gamit ang car speakers niya.

Hey babe! Sorry nakatulog ako, sagot niya. Puta, ang galing din nitong magpanggap. Tunog tulog nga. 

Lalong tumigas ang burat mo sa naririnig mong pagsisinungaling niya.

Pagod eh, nakatulog ako pagkauwi. Di pa nga ako nakaka-dinner, palusot. Fuck, are you hearing this? He’s actually lying to his boyfriend, in front of you?

You’re high from the lust. You can’t help yourself.  You reach over and start to stroke his dick. He’s still hard. Seems like he enjoyed your fuck, he wants more.

He raises his finger to his lips. He smiles. He bites his lip. 

You can feel your dick throbbing again. You squeeze his, and it’s throbbing too. You’re throbbing for each other.

He pulls your head towards his crotch. You oblige him, even while he’s driving and talking to his boyfriend. What you’re doing now is dangerous. But nevermind. You feel really good.

He keeps on talking, while you start to suck him.

Oo babe, eto oorder na ko. Papa-Grab ko na lang. Ahhhh, mmm. Ha? Ah wala, inaantok lang. Mmmm, shit, uhhh. Ay wala babe, bigla kasi akong bumangon, nahihilo. Fuckk…..


9

BRRRRT!  

You’ve been daydreaming again. Nakakailang messages ka na sa Alter Phone mo. Sumasabog na ng Grindr notifs. 

You continue scrolling the messages. One chat catches your eye. It’s from: Couple 4 Fun.

You open the chat. It’s a picture of two guys. One is a twink, like you, while the other looks fit. Lean. Almost a twink too, but with more muscle. They seem nice.

There’s another message: Hey. We’re a couple looking for safe fun.

You reply: Hi there! Cool.

You send them your picture. The one where no guy can resist. The one with the fitted sando and the boner with the briefs. The one where you’re glowing. 

They reply: Wow! Ang hot mo! 

You: Thanks. P— here.

Them: We’re Pat and Migz.

  


Friday, June 10, 2022

Cuck Revival: Part 1

THE MEMORY


1

I’m so fucking drained.

That’s right. Sabihin mo yan sa sarili mo. Tapos isipin mo: pang-ilang beses ko na ba tong sinabi this month? This week? Everyday? Every fucking hour? See, here is your stereotypical corporate slave. Time in nang 9 A.M., time out nang 5 P.M., book ng Grab, commute, luto ng dinner, uminom nang alak because you wanna feel numb after a long day’s work, matulog nang lasing, gigising ng 7 A.M., book ulit ng Grab, commute, tapos time in na naman. Lagi’t lagi na lang. You’re officially becoming a cliche. 

I’m so fucking drained.

Yeah, you are. But you can’t do anything about it. Alangan naman magresign ka? Resign na resign ka na, oh my god, yes, resign na lang tapos balik na lang tayo ulit sa time na hawak ko ang sarili kong oras, nakikipagmeet nang kung sinu-sino, tinitira at tumitira nang kung sinu-sino, pero mayaman pa rin. But no, you have to work hard, because people think you work hard, because people think you are great at what you do, because people think you have it all figured out. People think you are a golden boy, the ultimate inspiration, the twitter hottie who has it all. You know that, you very well know that, but you don’t agree with them publicly, you remain humble. Because you have an image to uphold, you need to be the goody two shoes that you are. Hey world, look at me. I’m so perfect, and I’m not even trying so hard. Look at me but god I hope you don’t realize that I want you all to look at me. Desire me. Fuck me like how life fucks me - senseless.

I’m so fucking drained.

You take a sip of the wine you have in your hand, and you reflect: When have you ever gotten a good fuck? Mind-blowingly good fuck, the roll-your-eyes-fall-down-on-the-bed-exhausted fuck? Yung hindi kailangan ng poppers to turn you on. You’ve had so much sex in your life, even the chocolate ones seemed so vanilla. Every fucking time, you need poppers. You are so bored. You’ve had so much relationship shit before, and you’re too scared to love again. I wanna enjoy and fuck around but I can’t catch a break, rant mo sa sarili mo. All the kindness that you show, the golden-boy aura that you exude, you all do that to maintain balance: ayaw mong madisrupt ang kung ano mang cosmic karma shit na meron sa mundo. You’re in a good place now, but you’re so fucking bored.

No one knows how chocolate you can be. Baka nga black forest mo. Or darker than the darkest chocolate. You push all your desires deep down, tinatago mo. Because when people know how evil, how mean, how sex-starved you can be, there will be judgment. Everyone thrives on judgment, that’s how they feel better about themselves. 

But I wanna feel good. Nasan na ba ang tamang lalake? 

Sure ka bang binibigay niya? Sure ka bang alam niya talaga kung ano gusto mo? 

Hindi. And I won’t ever tell whoever guy that is what I want. Magugulat siya.

Of course he will be. No one wants to admit that they wanna be sluts. No one wants to admit na exciting ang bawal. In your case, ayaw mong sabihin na kating-kati ka sa titeng tali na, at kating-kati din ang tite mo sa pwet na tali. But no, that’s taboo. The guy will never understand that you find homewrecking so hot. It’s the perfect disruption to your routine. You know deep down that disruption excites you. Anything different from your routine turns you on. 

Remember the married guy last month?


2

Of course you do. Maaga kang umuwi, you had to skip the rest of the day from work kasi nahihilo ka. Sobrang puyat kasi. Pumayag naman si boss. Nice one. Only pagkauwi mo, you took of your clothes, went to the bathroom, and douched yourself like hell. Yan ba ang may sakit? 

Hindi, yan ang may booking, sabi mo sa sarili mo nang natatawa. Buti na lang single ka na. Buti na lang, perfect ang nahanap mo sa Grindr. At buti na lang, mahaba din ang kargda.

Now that’s a routine disruptor.

Hindi ka kumain nung araw na yun. If you’re gonna have that monster dick inside you, you better make sure you’re clean down there. You fasted, and then you douched. You took two capsules of Diatabs for good measure. You made sure all the dirt inside are flushed out. My god, buti na lang ang galing ko magdouche. 

Because you’re such a slut for dick. A hard, girthy, long dick that fits well into your hole. A partnered dick. A dick who should have belonged to others, pero mas gusto pasukin ang butas mo. It’s been a while since you’ve been a homewrecking cocksucker, and oh my fucking god how you’ve missed it! NOW JUDGE ME, WORLD!

 Paulit ulit mong nilinis ang butas mo. Even the douche is turning you on so much, you’re hard down there. 

Eto na yun, yung kahit walang poppers kaya kong tigasan. Paulit ulit mong pinapasok. Fuck, parang dildo lang. Ang sarap. 

Ginagawa ko naman to usually, pero bakit iba ngayon?, tanong mo sa sarili mo. Alam mo naman ang sagot. It’s the disruption. It’s the married dick. It’s your penchant for homewrecking. It’s because finally, you get to be the mean slut that you are. Oh god, ang sarap sa feeling maging special no? Ang pagpantasyahan ng ibang lalake na tali na. Ang makitang kumukunot ang noo ng sinasakyan mong lalake, nakabuka ang bibig, nakahawak sa beywang mo, habang patuloy kang kumakabayo sa burat niyang tigas na tigas para sayo, pero hindi sa boyfriend/girlfried niya. 

Lumabas ka sa banyo nang matigas pa rin. Sinuot mo yung jockstrap mo, yung favorite ng partner mo pero ngayon magiging favorite na rin ng lalakeng kikitain mo. Tumayo ka sa harap ng full-body mirror mo. 

Yes, you are the golden boy. Porselana ang kutis. Chinito. Lean, with the right amount of muscle in the right places. Twunk. Your smile dazzles. Your eyes hypnotizes. Your whole face does not betray the slutty homewrecker within. Who would have known that such a good boy like you could break relationships? Pinadaan mo ang kamay mo sa katawan mo. Inisip mo kung Ilang lalake na ang napahiyaw mo sa ganyang katawan.

“Putangina ang sarap mo, P—!”

“Fuck, sana ikaw na lang boyfriend ko!”

“Ang kinis mo, mas makinis ka pa kesa sa kanya!”

“Ang galing mong sumubo, pucha! Sige pa!”

“You’re fucking good, P—! Sarap mo araw-arawin!”

Inisip mo kung Ilang lalake na ang nag-enjoy sa butas mo habang sinasakyan mo sila. Ang sikip-sikip mo raw. Kahit ang dami nang nakapasok sa butas na yan, masikip pa rin. Kahit ikaw hindi mo maexplain. Must be the genes. Your mouth should be one of the wonders of the world, sabi nila. You’ve tasted so much dicks you know how to make guys feel good about theirs. And you’re not ashamed by it. In fact, nung araw na yun, habang nakatingin ka sa salamin, sobrang turned on ka na. Kahit hindi ka pa pumupunta sa condo unit ni Daddy, naglileak ka na.

Nagbihis ka. Ang higpit ng jockstrap sayo, halos lumuwa ang pwet mo sa higpit. Just the way guys like it. God, super high ka na nun sa libog. Kelan ka ba huling nagloko? 3 months ago? 4 months? Nagpabango ka, pero hindi ganun karami. Alam mong mababaliw silang dilaan ang katawan mo, baka maglasang bitter pag masyadong maraming perfume. Alam mong ibobody worship ka nila, much as ibobody worship mo rin sila. That’s how you drive guys wild. Take note, gays. Body worship is key. Make your partner feel like a god. Put that tongue to work.

You felt fresh, you felt good about yourself that day when married guy met you and fucked you. But most of all, you felt so dirty. Let’s do a short recall of what you and he did.


3

Deed # 1: Both of you turned off your phones. No messages from partners. He’ll make excuses na lang afterwards. Nalowbatt siya, walang signal, nakatulog. His husband wouldn’t know. Good boy si Daddy eh.


Deed # 2: No poppers, too. Just raw lust. No drug inducements. You reasurred Daddy na kakayanin without poppers. And yes, kinaya nga.


Deed # 3: The moment you went in his condo unit, sinunggaban ka na ni Daddy. Daddy was a hunk. Daddy was a god. Daddy had muscles to match Chris Hemsworth. Daddy looked like Luis Hontiveros. Daddy had his dick so hard, it was bursting out of his shorts. Daddy was commando. Daddy was growling. Daddy was horny for you. Not for his husband.


Deed # 4: He licked your nipples. He tried biting them. You encouraged him. Tumingin si Daddy sayo at biglang nilamon ang mga labi mo. Libog na libog na siya. Apparently, pareho kayong turned on sa paglolokong ginagawa niyo. Pareho kayong nasasarapan sa bawal.


Deed # 5: “Putangina, ang sarap mo, P—! Sana ikaw na lang asawa ko!”, sabi ni Daddy habang nakatuwad ka sa kama. Binubuka niya ang hiwa mo. His tongue is attacking you viciously. Good god, parang burat na rin ang dila niya, naisip mo. Umungol ka: that cute, conyo Chinoy moan that all of your guys loved.


“Ganyan nga baby. Fuck, ang sarap mo,” ungol ni Daddy. He was growling at you. Ang lalim ng boses. Barakong barako. Nagsimula kang magjakol habang niri-rim ka, pero pinigilan ka. 

“Wag ka magjakol. Lalabasan ka niyan kaagad. Susulitin kita,” sabi niya. Natakot ka kay Daddy. Pero lalo lang tumigas ang burat mo.


Deed # 6: You were on top of him. He’s moaning so loudly. Buti na lang soundproof ang mga dingding ng condo niya. Kinikiskis mo yung pwet mo sa burat niya. Hindi mo kelangan lawayan. Hindi mo pa nga chinuchupa, madulas na dahil sa precum. Oh god, ang tigas mo Dad, ungol mo. Tinaas niya ang kamay niya at hinawakan ang pink mong nipples. Umupo siya at patuloy na kinain ang utong mo habang kinakabayo ng hiwa mo ang burat niya.  


Wag mong kagatin Dad ha, reminder mo sa kanya. Mahirap na, baka mahuli ka pa.

“Yes, baby,” ungol ni Daddy habang palipat-lipat siya ng kain sa dalawa mong utong. Lumiyad ka pa lalo. Yang ganyang body language ang gustung-gusto nila. Pinaramdam mo na nasasarapan ka. He responded to what you did, at pinagapang niya ang dila niya pababa.


Deed # 7: Yes, chinupa ka ni Daddy. Hindi mo inexpect. Akala mo pure top siya. But no, he was so turned on sayo na sinubukan ka nyang chupain. After all, ikaw yan eh. The top converter. Hindi lang chupa ang ginawa first time niyang ginawa nung gabing yun.


Deed # 8: Pinatuwad ka rin niya ceiling-to-floor window na meron sa unit niya. He fucked you so hard, you were leaking through your jockstraps. He had an 8-inch monster, and you took it like a pro. He was not disappointed at all.


“Tangina, hindi yan kaya ng asawa ko,” ungol niya.

Fuck, talaga ba?, sabi mo habang sinikipan mo yung butas mo. Muscle control, bitches.

“PUTANGINAAAAAA ANO YUN!”

Something your wife can’t do, apparently, sagot mo. Oh, how mean you are! Napakagat-labi ka. Ganyan nga, Daddy. Pasok mo lang.

“Fuck you, P—! PUCHAAA ANG SARAP MO TIRAHIN!” sigaw ni Daddy habang lalo kang sinandal sa bintana. Kitang-kita nang buong Ayala Avenue ang katawan mo. Bahala sila, mag-enjoy sila sa show. Pinasok ka nang pinasok ni Daddy.

Fuck, sige pa Dad.

“ARGHHHH! HMMMP!”

Ah putangina ang sarap!!!

Inabot ni Daddy ang mga labi mo at hinalikan ka, habang patuloy kang kinakadyot. Ang isang kamay niya naman, pumunta sa burat mong kanina pa naglalawa. Sinimulan niyang batehin ka. Lalo kang nalunod sa libog. This is it, naisip mo. Eto yung sex na hindi kelangan ng poppers.    


Deed # 9: You were riding him so hard. Nakasandal siya sa headboard. Nakataas ang pareho niyang kamay sa likod ng ulo niya. Ang sarap niyang tingnan with his armpits. And you returned the favor of this delicious sight you’re seeing by riding him so well.


“Hindi ganyan sumakay ang asawa ko, puta ka!” sigaw niya hawak-hawak ang bewyang mo. Lumiyad ka habang nakasakay, at lalong napalakas ang hiyaw ni Daddy. Inabot niya ang burat mo at sinubukan ka ulit chupain. Tumirik ang mga mata mo.

Ang sarap talagang maging vers, isip mo. Kinakantot ka habang may nakachupa sayo. Lalo mong diniin ang kadyot ng pwet mo. Pag pababa, pasok na pasok ang burat ni Daddy. Pag pataas, pasok na pasok sa bunganga ni Daddy. Ilang minuto kayong ganyan. This is heaven. Kahit ang ex mo, hindi kayang gawin yun. Fuck, this is what I want!

“ARGHGHHHG!”

Sarap ba ha? Sarap ba kong chupain?, tanong mo kay Daddy.

“Fuck baby, ang sarap mo! Hindi ko chinuchupa ang asawa ko!”

Lalo mong binilisan. Lalo siyang nabilaukan. At lalong humigpit ang butas palibot sa burat niya. Lalong lumakas ang hiyawan. Bigla niluwa ni Daddy ang burat mo. Fuck, why? Ang sarap na eh!

Nagulat ka nang bigla ka niyang pinahiga. Biglang nabakante ang butas mo. Ang lakas nung tunog ng pagbakante, halatang malaki yung nanggaling sa loob. Nakatingin ka pataas sa kanya. Tayong-tayo parin ang burat mo. Pareho na kayong naglalawa. Pareho na kayong libog na libog sa isa’t isa.

“Ako naman,” sabi ni Daddy. Pumaibabaw siya sayo.


Deed # 10: Yes, you fucked him, too. It’s a great thing to be a vers, no? You get the best of both worlds. Well, yung totoo, he rode you. He rode you like a slutty top that he is. Ang taas ng success rate mo for top conversions. You had one that night. That’s how turned on he was for you. He was willing to be a bottom for you, something na hindi niya nagawa para sa asawa niya. Wait, may asawa pa ba siya?, naisip mo. Sa ginagawa niya ngayon, parang wala eh. Parang ako lang ang lalake sa buhay niya. And you loved that, that special attention given to you. Na ikaw lang ang center of universe ni Daddy.


Unti-unti siyang umupo sayo. You mentioned na vers ka sa kanya, so he must have prepared beforehand. Ganun ba siya katurned on sakin? Na nagprepare ka talaga? But you stopped thinking about it so much. Better enjoy the moment.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuck. Iba pa rin talaga pag burat mo na ang nakapasok sa butas ng iba. Ibang klase ang hawak at higop na hindi mapapantayan ng kahit anong bunganga.  You wondered if your hole felt as good? Ganito ba nafi-feel ng tops sakin if ako ang sumasakay sa kanila? Because shit, ang sarap sa feeling nito.

Dad, ang sarap moooooo, ungol mo sa kanya.

“Dahan-dahan, baby,” kaba niyang sabi. Unti-unti siyang bumaba sayo. Nang makapasok na, nakangiwi siya. 

Relax dad, sasarap din yan, sabi mo.

“Sorry, first time ko,” tawa niyang sagot. “Ang sakit.”

Relaxxxxxx. Tumingin ka sa burat niya. Hindi man lang siya lumambot sa sakit. Naglalawa pa rin ang burat niya. He’s so fucking turned on.

Ang tigas mo pa rin, gulat mong sabi.

“Yeah, ang hot mo eh,” ngumiti siya sabay kagat-labi. Lalong tumaas ang libog mo. Hinuli mo ang mga labi niya at nilamon siya ng halik. Pinahiga mo siya nang dahan-dahan.

You’ll enjoy this, Dad.


Deed # 11: You fucked the entire night. There were no drugs, no enhancements. None. But you were hard for each other the entire night. Two lost souls, looking for a disruption. Looking for excitement. He didn’t have a husband that night. You only had each other. At sinulit niyo.


  Malapit na ko dad, ungol mo habang nakasakay ka sa kanya. Third round niyo na, and this time pinakita mo talaga how great of a bottom you are. That you can make your top cum hard, even on the third round. The sun is rising. Alas singko na. You never slept. You just fucked.

“Yes baby, ride that cock. Sige paaaaaa!!!”

You showed him how good of a rider you can be. Giniling mo, tumaas ka at bumababa, nilapirot mo ang utong niya. Hinahayaan ka lang niyang gumalaw. Nakakapit siya sa beywang mo. Sinasagot nya ng kadyot ang bawat baba mo. Sinasagad ka niya. Wasak na wasak ka na tonight, pero patuloy ka lang. Kelan ba mauulit to? Hindi na siguro. Sulitin ko na. Tama ka dyan, sulitin mo na ang pagiging pokpok mo. Samakalawa, uuwi na ang partner mo.

“OH FUUUCK, LAPIT NA KO, LAPIT NA!”

Sabay tayo, Dad.

“YES BABY, SIGE LANG SIGE LANG I’M ALMOST THERE!”

Oh fuck, Daddy, fuck that feels so good…

BABY IKAW NA LANG SANA FUUUUUCK IKAW NA!”

Yes, fuck me, balik ka please, tanginaaaa ayan na ko.

PUTOK MO BABY I’M CUMMING FOR YOUUUUUU!”

Shit, shiiitttt, fucking shiiiiit.

Both of you came hard. You never came that hard since forever. He never did for his husband. 

Oh what sluts you are. 

    

4

Napatigil ka bigla sa pagpapantasya. Libog ka na. Ang tigas na ng burat ko. Bakat na bakat ngayon sa shorts mo. Enough of that, self, sabi mo sa sarili mo. That was many months ago. Bu-booking ka pa, di ba? You need that disruption NOW!

BRRRRRT!

Ah, yes, the Alter/Grindr phone. The spare phone that you have that no one knows you use. The one with the unknown number. The one hidden in your sock drawer. Yung isa mo pang phone na ikaw lang nakakaalam. Mabuti na lang, kahit na routine na ang buhay mo, may mga bagay pa rin na nagbibigay ng disruption. Mabuti na lang, andyan pa rin si Alter phone. 

For emergency purposes lang naman.

Ha! Sige na nga. For emergency purposes. Gotcha. Is tonight an emergency?

I don’t know. Depends.

Depende sa source ng BRRRRT! Sound?

BRRRT! BRRRRT! That many messages, huh?

You open the phone. Nakalimutan mo sa sobrang pagmuni-muni mo na nabuksan mo pala siya kanina pagkauwi mo. Yung nag-iisang item sa routine mo na ayaw mong tigilan: ang pagbukas ng Alter phone pagkauwi. Your Alter phone is your bestfriend. In times of need, your Alter phone is the most reliable. When you need a disruption, Alter phone’s got you.